Road Block

You know how I said that our home study was finished, well now it’s not.  We just got a call from our social worker saying that because our adoption agency was just recently Hague accredited they now have to follow all of the new rules and policies.  Since our home study was turned in just after this took place we now have to follow those new policies.  One of these new policies is that we now have to complete a child abuse background clearance for every state or country we have resided in since we were 18.  When we got our Washington clearance done it took a couple of weeks, so I have no idea how long this is going to take.  I will need to do checks from Montana(where I worked for a summer) and also New York(where I served my mission).  Jason will need one from Tennessee(where he did his basic training for the Navy), Florida(where he was stationed), and the Philippines(where he served his mission).  MT and TN do not have child abuse registries, so we have to send notarized letters to them and hope that they can help us out.  I have no idea how we will get the Philippines check done.  Our social worker is still looking into that.

I couldn’t sleep at all last night because I am feeling so stressed and frustrated about all of this.  Just when we were starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, someone had to go and turn it off.  I know I need to trust the Lord and realize that this is all happening for a reason, but it is really hard to do when you are caught up in it.  I know that when we finally have our child in our arms I will look back on this and know the reasons why, but for now I just need to feel frustrated and vent for awhile.  We were so close.  All we had left to do was write our own letter of commitment to adopt and get some pictures printed.  I never thought we would have our dossier completed before our home study.  This is just crazy.  I can’t tell you how relieved we will feel when we are finally finished with all of this.  I am just hoping that this is the last thing we will need to do.  I was really hoping to have everything finished this week, because I am getting my wisdom teeth pulled on Monday and I know I won’t be feeling like doing much for a couple weeks after that.  I know we will get around this road block, just like we have all the others, I just wish I knew how long it was going to take.